I realized something yesterday – I haven’t had a working to-do list in about a month. How did this happen? How did I not realize it sooner? More importantly, how am I still getting things done?
This is so unlike me. I always have my lists and proudly check things off frequently. Heck, I would put things on there just to check them off. But now, here I am, I woman without a list.
I love it.
As I think about it now, I believe that my to-do lists were causing undue anxiety on a subconscious level. Before, I would sometimes feel overwhelmed, chaotic, fearful and nervous and never understood why. I’m usually a grounded person who can handle anything that comes my way. At some point though, my subconscious must have decided that enough was enough and it was time for a solution: the lists had to go. Since they’ve been gone, my symptoms have literally gone away. The pressure, the sense of urgency, the control, the noise – all were quieted.
I feel free.
The liberation that took place in the last month has been a sweet surprise. I feel lighter; my mind is more open to what’s to come. And guess what? Things haven’t fallen apart; they’re actually falling in place. I do what needs to be done at the time. Everything else waits. If it’s important enough, my consciousness will let me know. Don’t get me wrong. Planning for the future on some level is necessary, however even planning should be done in moderation. And while I’ll never say to-do lists are completely out of my system, I know they aren’t in demand like they used to be.